Now this post is not intended to
stir up the proverbial religious pot, but with no real intent other than to
spill my brain. I understand that we all have our differences, which may be a
little or a lot.
I was raised in a religious environment,
my mother took me to church, I was GA of the year, by having memorized a
certain number of bible verses, and I attended a private Christian school until
5th grade. As hormones surfaced and I approached high school, and
certain circumstances occurred which had questions churning in my mind.
Those questions of faith and as
to whether the belief a person has in something greater is what actually drives
their moral path, or is it the belief and confidence in themselves as
individual that decides their right or wrong.
I was a rebellious teen; I made mediocre grades, and had a bad angry
attitude. I made the wrong, or the right
choices only based on my emotions at the time, and often continue to today. Although,
I consider myself more confident, and a bit slower to react on choices I make
than I used to be. The faith in my
decisions to be right, or the existence of a greater being still continues to
be a question, which has me wonder if lack of conviction causes me to be bitter
and cold hearted.
I try to not think I am sour, and
I hope to walk out of my 20th decade with more openness, and faith.
If that faith is not in a greater god, then have it be bigger faith in what I believe to be good.
Even if the good given is as simple as a hug, door held, or a kind word. I wish
to have more faith in positivity and kindness, and exemplify this toward others.
