Now this post is not intended to stir up the proverbial religious pot, but with no real intent other than to spill my brain. I understand that we all have our differences, which may be a little or a lot.
I was raised in a religious environment, my mother took me to church, I was GA of the year, by having memorized a certain number of bible verses, and I attended a private Christian school until 5th grade. As hormones surfaced and I approached high school, and certain circumstances occurred which had questions churning in my mind.
Those questions of faith and as to whether the belief a person has in something greater is what actually drives their moral path, or is it the belief and confidence in themselves as individual that decides their right or wrong. I was a rebellious teen; I made mediocre grades, and had a bad angry attitude. I made the wrong, or the right choices only based on my emotions at the time, and often continue to today. Although, I consider myself more confident, and a bit slower to react on choices I make than I used to be. The faith in my decisions to be right, or the existence of a greater being still continues to be a question, which has me wonder if lack of conviction causes me to be bitter and cold hearted.
I try to not think I am sour, and I hope to walk out of my 20th decade with more openness, and faith. If that faith is not in a greater god, then have it be bigger faith in what I believe to be good. Even if the good given is as simple as a hug, door held, or a kind word. I wish to have more faith in positivity and kindness, and exemplify this toward others.